Tell Your Story

Lately, I have been posting statistics and little tidbits about my latest project.  This project is of a serious nature, dealing with the issues of rape. God has given me the vision for this company and the passion to put a unique voice to productions that would otherwise be produced.  God has planted a seed in me to tell a story, and to talk about an issue that society seems afraid to address.  I want to tell the stories of people affected by rape -- their ability to overcome, their struggles, the community's response to them, the church's response to them, and their response to the church.  I want to tell their story and do it justice. 

If you have been affected by rape and are willing to speak with me, or know someone who is willing to share, please email me at mainedramapro@gmail.com.  I guarantee all participants complete anonymity.  Names and faces will not be broadcast without consent.  But these stories of triumph, struggle, and journey will help us better understand something we tend to ignore.  Prayerfully, your story will help heal someone else.

If you have any questions about this project or would like to know more, please contact me at the email address above.

Funny

It's funny when God closes one door...or in my case, many doors...how He opens so many others. And the other doors that He opens are significantly better than the ones that were closed. I just had to be patient cuz I was trying to fit all the wrong keys in the door and getting frustrated. Or I was trying to open it so badly and let in foolishness, or keep myself from shutting foolishness out.

So I'm thanking God for closed doors. They were so needed. So maybe it's not funny...just amazing!

Frustrated

So I've finally had time to sit down and write another post. But, BELIEVE ME, there has been a lot to talk about! You have absolutely no idea. I even flirted with the idea of making my posts private so I could really let loose. But I digress...

I have been going through it yall. All of it has just been making me nothing but frustrated. Personally and work wise. But, that may to be for another 'private' post. But through it all I'm pushing through. When one thing passes, something else always happens. But I'm stronger and better. All adding to that new me that I mentioned in my last post. I've seen that I've been able to push through things that I didn't think I could handle. But it has also been teaching me to truly rely on my God because He is the only One that can sustain me through any of it. And when I really rested on that, I felt so much lighter and less frustrated. Can you feel me on that?

I keep looking forward and trusting God to direct my path. And if I trip up a little, I know that He is there to catch me. If anything, He has been teaching me complete reliance. I have no other choice but to do that. So I keep praying that He does what He does so that I can completely let ALL of it go.

That doesn't mean that I'm still not frustrated. Lighter, but still a bit frustrated...

I Will Wait For You

A friend emailed me a link to this woman's spoken word piece. Now, those who know me well know that I not only love spoken word but write a little myself. Either way, he sent me this link and I was awed. Apparently this video has been circulating for a little while. Well, I just saw it and it touched me. Especially now, after dealing with a break up and heart ache, it gave me a little more perspective. My focus is on Him. Hope it does the same for you.

A New Me

A friend recently told me, "T, what's good? What happened to the posts?"

I've been off my game for a minute. Seems to be the consensus for a lot of my blogging friends. But I will tell you this...though I may not have been blogging, I've definitely gathered a lot of material to blog about, so stay tuned. Just need to find a way to do so delicately so that I may protect the innocent...or not so innocent.

In the past couple of months I have started a new job, had some high highs, some low lows, spiritually gone through, come back, and gone through again. I've experienced heart break (still bouncing back from that) and became a stronger and better woman because of all of it.

I've developed a new me...and I think I like her. Think I just may keep this one around.

So keep your eyes open for the tales of my journey.

Undeserving

Saw this poem. How I feel and how a lot of us should feel.

Undeserving
by Janet Martin

I don't deserve the countless gifts
God showers down on me
Storehouses over flowing
With love abundantly
In tender smiles and soft warm hugs
In sleepy-sighed good-nights
In flowers, showers, lady-bugs
In whispered breaths of light

I don't deserve the color blue
In endless azure sky
The earth that gleams in emerald hue
To please the longing eye
A-thousand, thousand shades of green
Splashed from a heavenly palette
And I am somewhere in-between
I stand in awe of You, Lord

No man can paint one leaf or flower
Or alter Your great plan
No man can touch Your awesome power
Or have the means to span
The distance between green and blue
And heaven up above
No man can ever replace You
Or Your redeeming love

I don't deserve Your mercy, Lord
Or treasures of this earth
Nothing I do could once afford
What Your great love is worth
Humbly I bow before Your throne
To count my utter loss
And see the wonder of Your Son
Hanging on the cross

I don't deserve amazing grace
A love that never dies
But there I see it in Your face
And shining from the skies
As love in all its countless forms
You shower on my way
I don't deserve a single one
….You bless me anyway

Emotionally Drained

Today was a hard day for emotions.
My warm, salt-stained tears.
My mind running in full commotion.
The heart raging with 1000 fears.