The Anxieties!

Things have been moving along well and I couldn't be more excited about it. But the closer and closer I move towards realizing a dream of mine, the more and more I think of failure and falling short.

This play is just a small piece of the larger puzzle. This play begins the journey that I will embark to start something that sparked in me a few short years ago. To see how an idea of mine spawned into this elaborate detail brings delight to my spirit. I remember wondering how I wanted to do this, the different motions that my ideas went through, sitting in Silver Diner with three friends discussing how we would come together to make it happen. Now the time has approached. Everything that I have experienced between now and then has been preparation for this. Doesn't that seem a little nerve-wrecking?



I embrace each challenge, even though I may complain through it. I look forward to the next journey. But as the dream grows and I take one step closer towards it, there are more obstacles that appear. I can't help but to have the questions of "what if I fail?" or "what if this isn't exactly how I'm suppose to do it?" or "what if I'm just wasting my time?"

For that last one, I know I'm not wasting time. I was created to do this. I was born to do this. If I wasn't pursuing this then I would be living a meaningless life, and then there would be no point in existing. So I ask that you continue to keep me in your thoughts, keep encouraging me, keep pushing me along. Whenever you are pursuing your dreams wholeheartedly, the anxieties are mounting!