Things have been kind of tough lately. Tough in the sense of employment. I am working and am grateful for the chance to take care of my responsibilities, but I am soooo unhappy and really want a change. I have been on my grind trying to find something new, but nothing. And to be honest, I've been applying to a lot of things that would keep me comfortable. They have my interest, but not all of them are directly related to the arts. It's becoming so frustrating that I just am really questioning, "God, what else do you want me to do? Where else am I suppose to look?"
I was talking to someone today and we were talking about passions and I think that's just it right there. I really need to just jump after my passion. I don't know where to begin, but I have to start the search. That may mean more rejections, that may mean being pulled out of my comfort zone, that may mean moving to another state. I have no clue. And I know because of all the MaineDrama stuff I've been doing I have been so tied to this area, thinking that if I moved that would be the end of this production company. There goes my connections, my know, the ease of it all. But if this is what I am passionate about then wherever I go, this company will follow. May be a little bit harder, but wouldn't it be worth it?
So to the next chapter, where that leads me...I honestly don't know.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Cabin Fever
As most of the country is aware, the DMV has been dumped upon with the white stuff. And when we get a sign of relief another wave sets in. It was cute at first, but then it began to cancel plans and eat away at one's sanity. I spent the first batch of the snow with some friends and that definitely helped to pass the time and make for great conversation. However, as for MaineDrama Production business, all of that had to be placed on hold. Scripts were to go out and the next phase rolling, but what kind of person would I be to try and make people (let alone myself) to come out in that horrendous blizzard for a few sheets of paper? A crazy one! (It's okay, I answered for you.)
Now the second wave has hit and once again we are on lock down in our homes. The cabin fever, varying levels of creativity, claustrophobia, countless hours of TV/movie watching, and the like set in. This would be a supreme time to really catch up on things that I should be doing. MD work that needs to be done. But there lies the problem, a lot of what I need to do, I need to be out of the house to do it, lol. So, okay, this is a time when maybe I need to take a breather from it all before it really begins to pick up. And for that, I can be patient and relax. So, I'm trying to take this time of confinement as a time to reflect, spend more time with my Maker so that I make the right decisions concerning everything else, and just write. Develop the serenity that I definitely need in my life.
Now the second wave has hit and once again we are on lock down in our homes. The cabin fever, varying levels of creativity, claustrophobia, countless hours of TV/movie watching, and the like set in. This would be a supreme time to really catch up on things that I should be doing. MD work that needs to be done. But there lies the problem, a lot of what I need to do, I need to be out of the house to do it, lol. So, okay, this is a time when maybe I need to take a breather from it all before it really begins to pick up. And for that, I can be patient and relax. So, I'm trying to take this time of confinement as a time to reflect, spend more time with my Maker so that I make the right decisions concerning everything else, and just write. Develop the serenity that I definitely need in my life.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Round 2...Down...But Not Out
So last Friday I held the second round of auditions for the play. It was a necessity. While we had a good turnout for the first round, we didn't get all of the people that we needed to complete the cast. But no fear, I pressed on and decided to hold a second round. We advertised, posted, word of mouth, etc. And the response was awesome! I had a long list of people that were coming to audition. Things were looking positive. I was going to fill all of my remaining slots and have extras! Woo Hoo! WRONG!
Do you know only two people showed up! TWO! But the surprising thing is, even though I was disappointed, I wasn't worried. At all! I had such peace about it all. And the two people that came in did their thing and filled two very needed spots. As I began to discuss the situation with my director, we brainstormed and thought, "How can we remedy this?" But when you are doing something for someone who is bigger than you, when you are doing something that you were destined and created to do, you don't have to do much to make it happen. Within one day we were able to fill 5 slots out of 7. 5 of which were main characters. I'm so at peace right now. And it is all falling into place.
It's like I said before...when you are doing what you were intended to do, there will always be monkey-wrenches thrown in there somewhere. The true test is how you respond to it all. I could have freaked out, shut things down, thought that this wasn't going to happen. But then what would that say about me? How would I grow and learn how to deal with adversity if I quickly threw in the towel?
So I guess I should take a lesson from my own play...Count It All Joy.
James 1:2-4 MSG
2-4Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.
Do you know only two people showed up! TWO! But the surprising thing is, even though I was disappointed, I wasn't worried. At all! I had such peace about it all. And the two people that came in did their thing and filled two very needed spots. As I began to discuss the situation with my director, we brainstormed and thought, "How can we remedy this?" But when you are doing something for someone who is bigger than you, when you are doing something that you were destined and created to do, you don't have to do much to make it happen. Within one day we were able to fill 5 slots out of 7. 5 of which were main characters. I'm so at peace right now. And it is all falling into place.
It's like I said before...when you are doing what you were intended to do, there will always be monkey-wrenches thrown in there somewhere. The true test is how you respond to it all. I could have freaked out, shut things down, thought that this wasn't going to happen. But then what would that say about me? How would I grow and learn how to deal with adversity if I quickly threw in the towel?
So I guess I should take a lesson from my own play...Count It All Joy.
James 1:2-4 MSG
2-4Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.
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