SCREAMING

I wrote "Count it all Joy" back in 2005. I tried to produce it but to no avail. Something always got in the way and prevented me from going all the way. Whether it was people or just my laziness, it wouldn't happen. Funny, I was lazy about producing a passion and dream of mine. Says a lot, doesn't it? Guess that just wasn't the time for me to do it. And I would rather it be in perfect timing. Then I left for school, so I had no choice but to put the production on hold.

Now that I've moved back home, I was driven more than ever to get this done. I said, "Ok Tramaine, this time, no excuses. You have nothing that's keeping you from doing this but you." And yes, there is no one keeping me from doing this but me, but along the way other people get in the way as well. Now, I preface this by saying that I am not bashing anyone, but there have been many times when I just wanted to SCREAM!!!! But when you are working on other people's time, and things are going as quickly as you would like, it's frustrating. And, can I really get upset when they are helping me out? No, but that still doesn't keep my inner soul from wanting to belt out.

On August 15th, I had a Reading Party for my play. I invited a select group of individuals to come out and read through my play, acting out the characters. At the end of the reading, everyone would write down any constructive criticisms that they may have so that I could go back and make the play even better. Leading up to this day, getting the room was no easy feat. Pricing and getting the food for the event wasn't either. The day of the event I went to get the food, get all the materials together, pick up someone, and get to College Park within two hours. Needless to say, some arguments were had that morning. The Party was a success, but afterwards things just seemed to slow down, tremendously. I've been trying to solidify a venue since the week after the reading. For a month, I've been waiting to hear back from someone. Once again, I am grateful for this opportunity because, if they agree, I can get a venue, sound, light, crew for free. What a blessing. But my impatient self is like, "IT'S BEEN A MONTH. WHAT'S THE WORD DUDE?!"

It's been a slow process and I would love to see things move more quickly. But things don't always just fall into place and I'm learning that. Plus, my patience is always being tested and what better process to learn it in, right? (Please note the hint of sarcasm, lol.) I'm grateful for this process and I know I have to learn as I go, but that still doesn't stop me from wanting to just SCREAM at times!